You know things didn’t go so well when your husband looks at you as you’re leaving the school performance at the intermission and says, “I’m pretty sure there’s a blog post in there somewhere.” Well honey, you are right! There is a blog post in what happened tonight and here it is.

Last night we went to Big Kid’s Spring Concert. It was crowded and noisy, but you know what? We could see our child when she performed. It was great! She had a great time and had fun knowing that we could see what she was doing.

Fast forward to tonight. It was Open House night at Angel’s school (thankfully they were not on the same day this year). The barbecue was great. Not enough seats, but it was warm enough that sitting on the grass was not a big issue. Then came the performance. Not nearly enough seats in the gymnasium and they know this because the same thing happened for the Christmas Concert and there are less there tonight than there were then. Except for the Christmas Concert, the kindergardeners were on risers and it was possible to see them. Tonight, they had all the kindergarden and and grade 1s performing together. They didn’t put them on the stage and they didn’t use risers. These children are small! There is no way that someone standing at the back of the room could see them, and the parents in the seats stood to see their kids. So they are standing, taking videos and pictures and what have you, and we’re at the back of the room. No view whatsoever unless you count the backs of the parents who were standing.

Parents started yelling for people to sit down and I really thought it was going to come to blows. When people say they can’t see, why would you stay standing up?

I’m so disappointed because Angel was really excited about performing. They did the “Hoedown Throwdown” by Miley Cyrus or Hannah Montanna or whoever she was being when she recorded it. I know that she looked cute because I helped her put on a bandana and lent her my cowgirl hat. Beyond that, I have no idea. I saw nothing.

It’s the first time Angel has been so excited by something like this. I was talking to another mom and I said how disappointed Angel would be when she found out I couldn’t see her and she said, “This is one of those times it’s better to lie to her.” You know what, it really is. Angel asked me if I heard her, so that was an easy answer, I could hear the kids, I just couldn’t see them. It’s going to be harder when she asks if I saw her. Hubs tried to get some pictures, but it was hard because he couldn’t get any closer. What we have is a blur wearing a red shirt and a black cowgirl hat. The important thing in all of this is that she had fun. Me, not so much.

I really wonder if it’s worth the stress of rehearsing something and having people gather if no one can see a darn thing. I’m frustrated, angry and just fed up with the whole darn thing. They had an intermission when the kindergardners could be picked up from their classroom, so we got Angel and got the heck out of Dodge. I haven’t come to tears yet, but I was really close. Since I finished taking antidepressants, my emotions are still a little out of whack. Tears are a lot closer to the surface right now than they used to be. I’ll probably be OK in a bit. It’s just not very often that Angel gets excited about something like this; it was a big deal to me because it was a big deal to her.

Now to go find something to make me laugh….

This is Angel on the way to school this evening. She was yelling, "Nee-Haw!" instead of "Yee-Haw"